I sorry for your great loss. May you find comfort in Psalms 34:18  "Jehovah is close to the brokenhearted. He saves  those who are crushed in spirit " . Our heavenly Father Jehovah does not leave us without hope of seeing our love ones again. Acts 24 :15 assures us "There is going to be a resurrection .May your warm memories also give you strength to endure these difficult times.  With Deep Sympathy!